I guess my waysof sleeping a paradox much.
However, in the beginning I was barely able to fall asleep next to boyfriend because space and I anyways always used to have difficulties, but it worked somehow, until two nights I could not sleep AT ALL.
And then it suddenly became great and I loved it, and the warmth and the joy and waking up next to each other, or waking up at night because somebody strokes you...
And now, he is away and in the beginning I slept fine, but now...I cannot fall asleep, because I am always cold or uncomfortable.
And once I finally fall asleep it takes only a couple of hours...like four or five until those stupid fuckers start taking their chainsaws out to cut the hedges across the street. At 7 in the morning? Hello?
I mean, free country...blah...bull crap. And all I can concentrate on is the noise of that saw. I was never more happy that it started to rain, but unfortunately it was only a short rain and they restarted...so I got up and showered.
But I got sexy new clothes, because in St Andrews I cannot look like the tramp who sings Beatles songs to his guitar in the shopping streets.
So, I got
- a black skirt, with thin white stripes, that looks very business like.
- a black blazer in which I look hot and sexy and thin and combined with the skirt like a broker lady, but a sexy one.
- a purple blouse and the colour is oh to wondrous and I love it.
- a beige blouse, which perfects the business like look and is still funky when worn with other things
- a green blouse, again, perfect colour. I wear it right now and it is pretty
- and a black and white t-shirt which looks good with blazer
...spent a lot of money, but yeah...for once I needed the stuff and now I feel sexy and good.
Also, I have this thing for great hats. Like lady like, pretty hats. And whenever I am in certain stores I try on a few hats and for some crazy reason, they suit me well.
And I tried this funny blue hat and I was wearing jeans and a top and since I gained a bit of weight my body is now...well, rather female (but I lost it again almost completely by only eating fruit and yogurth)
and then a man came in, grinned, walked past me and said...that looks great at least on that woman.
Now, I was shopping with mother, because with boyfriend that does not happen a lot. But it was nice and flattering and made me feel great about myself.
Oh, I forgot I also got new udnerwear...I now feel very sexy.
Saturday HP comes out and I am finally hyped. It came late this time...last year I was so excited weeks before and this time only a few days, but I started speculating. I have a pretty full blown theory on pretty much everything, that seems logical to me (probably to nobody else)
But I guess it will be all different.
I wonder whether that book can live up to the expectations, but then I was never really disasppointed in any book, so I am optimistic. I want to like it, because HP accompanied me from the point where I started high school through my entire youth.
I just love the magic of it and how one can dive into that world, and I think in a way, in the field of fantasy it is outstanding literature, though it is not very artificial and well-written as real classics.
Today I leave for Heidelberg where I meet some people, but thank God the guy who broke my heart will not be there. I tend to make myself unhappy, having the self-destructive nature I cannot get rid of. But I am happy, could not be happier at the moment, and I am not intending to screw up on this.
Sunday I return and boyfriend too. Hopefully later than I, otherwise I shall leave earlier, because I am looking forward to him. A LOT.
I shall probably not read Harry POtter until Sunday or Monday and I will avoid anything and everything that comes even close to a spoiler, so if you want me to read your LJ, which I do intend to do, or come on wondrous, please mark every spoiler as a spoiler, don't put anything in your signatures or avatars. Otherwise I will not be online until I finished the book.
Love you all and need to pee,